You go on without me

It's easy, very easy to get swept away by negative emotions. It's mostly because the beliefs and images that we can hold in our mind. We might have mental or verbal statements like, "This is not how I envisioned it, This is not how I planned it out, That was so unfair, I don't deserve to be treated this way. I deserve better." You get the idea.

What spawns these kind of statements? From my vantage point it's based on so-called "greed, anger and delusion, born of my body, mouth and thought," as described in a short dedication in my DBZ sutra book. Put another way, we hold an image in our mind. The reality does not quite match up and we end up creating gaps in our life, one way or another. These can be actions like, pulling back from people, withholding love or approval, depression, anger, sulking, deep disappointment, frustration, etc. And there we are swept away, like a feather caught in a jet stream. No stability, driven about this way and that, as we look for something solid to hold on to.

Despite the fact this happens to us, there may be a solution. A friend once told me, "when I'm starting to travel with my negative emotions, I say 'You go on without me.' I make the conscious decision to get off the bus. It costs too much to travel with them. I just don't feel like riding along, because I always know where it will end. Me suffering."

So perhaps, perhaps, perhaps the next time we sense and feel ourselves being swept away by our negative emotions, beliefs, actions we to can simply connect with the thought, "You go on without me." And say goodbye. When I am leaving for work in the morning and I say goodbye to my three-year-old daughter she says, "bye, bye, Daddy" and makes no effort to hold on. She allows me to move on, so that I can go to work and she can move into her next moment as well.

Happiness,

Jaye Morris, Curator
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