I Will Be There For You

Last night, I was talking with my sister, spending time on the phone. I've been doing a lot of that with her lately. On Monday, she had surgery preparing the way for her pending start of dialysis. This has been a new issue among other serious medical issues she has been struggling with. It has been an emotional and vexing time. All of my life June has been a rock. Steady, clear, supportive and what I call, "the best version of ourselves." Yet something has begun to slightly modify and here is where things can get a little tough for our family.

In Buddhism, we talk about so-called "sickness, old age and death." When we are young, all that it looks and sound more like a theoretical rather than an actual. Now that we are at a certain point, things seem to have clarified and we have found out what is really important. It's certainly not the triviality of our lives.

During a particular conversation, June said "With all of these hospitalizations and feeling bad all the time, it really makes you think." When she said it, I knew what she meant. What has my life meant? What will happen to me? What have I left behind? It's the doubts.

My response to her is, "I will be here for You. I will remind you about what you've known all of your life." She asked, "what's that?" "That this whole world is shining and beautiful. So if your going to start feeling sorry for yourself, as your little brother I will have to kick your ass into shape and constantly remind you of that." She laughed saying, "That's why I call you about things like this. You have become my rock." That one hit the heart and tears of appreciation fell from both of us. No gaps and no distance.

Namaste',

Jaye Morris, Curator
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Comments

[Tony]

Jaye,
I'm sorry to hear about your sister. She is lucky to have someone like you in her corner. Dialysis is an ordeal. My sister was on dialysis for several years. I wish I could have been in her corner when she needed me. I was in the military at the time and it was rough not being there for her. Take care my friend and my prayers are with you.
//Tony P.