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"Come home soon." As I sat this morning, I reflected on something Junpo Denis Kelly, Roshi and later my own teacher, Genjo Marinello, Osho said to me. Come home soon... Return to the Heart-mind of being... These deep feelings and connections were influenced, after I read a comment made by a friend's post to digitalZENDO yesterday. It's so moving, it calls to be shared directly, front and center.

"The past 1-1/2 years have been really hard for me. I refused to sit for much of that time, and my "views" got to stinking pretty good. Suffering up, up, up! I knew better, too. So, awhile back I decided that would change, and I even started a sitting group at my house because I know the one thing that will keep me on the cushion is the thought of sitting with others knowing I'm not practicing regularly. It was an act of enormous compassion for myself. Because of my particular conditions, it has been very, very hard. And a huge part of it has been re-learning that the thought that I am alone is just that - a thought, a wrong view that is so destructive.

I have been without a sangha for a long time. I didn't think it was by choice, so I resented it, and outwardly, I really didn't have options for being part of a sangha. But inside, now I realize it was my choice, because I couldn't see the sangha that was already around me that didn't fit my idea, my view of what it should look like, because it wasn't 'Buddhist.'

I still want to be part of a Buddhist sangha, and a teacher that speaks English and is accessible would be nice. But ultimately, these are outward conditions, and we can't wait till we have all these things just right. I had to start sitting every day again to see it. I had to give up some of my views, too. It isn't easy, is it? No, suffering is easier by far, but it's a lousy alternative.

Cheri."

Every moment... with each breath, there is an effort... a want... a desire...an urge... to "Come home soon." This has been the effort and purpose of our life and being. To harmonize and transcend inside and outside, expressing the seamlessness of our being.

Genjo Osho once said, "You are the pilot of your own practice." What appears to be a easy or simple sentence, is in fact opening the gate to unifying our heart-mind. He is saying, "Come on in. You've made it. So nice to see you again. You've made it home. Please lets have some tea." In that moment we no longer have to be a stranger to our self, our life, to each other.

Cheri, I thank your for your courage. I thank you for your Being. I thank you for the reminder to come home soon. As I said to another friend the other day, "We live with you, not without you."

Love All - Serve All - Every Single Day,

Jaye Seiho Morris, Curator
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